Alienated

I've so many things to be disheartened about life. To feel down and bored to death by the same stupid downward thoughts. Yet, there are also dozens of things to be hopeful about life. The not ever fading desire to be better and feeling good. The contrast which it is annoyingly easy to be effected by it. I feel weak against the manipulation of my own mind.

At the end of the day all you can know is, life is a stupid game of thoughts and you ain't gonna have much of good time if the hand you're dealt with is mostly negative.